Japan

It's surreal watching the destruction of a place you love.  The natural destruction of the place you think of as home.  You don't know how to react, how to feel, or what to do.

Japan is close to my heart.... Japan is my heart.  And right now, my heart is breaking.

I want to jump on a plane and go help.  I want to make things better.  I want to know that my uncle is okay, since no one has been able to get a hold of him.  I want to see my Aunts and go "wow, they can withstand so much."  

I want to see the place I love. 

Yet, what would I do once I get over there?  Being a paralegal doesn't help in these types of situations.  My Japanese, at this point, is at a kindergarten level.  My passport isn't even updated with my new name.  

So, right now... I will have to be okay with donating money and prayers for everyone.   And knowing that eventually, hopefully sooner than later, I will be able to see the wonderful country I love.